well..

things are good i guess..
i like Nikki Horne.. she is really nice.. i didnt think i would like working with her.. but i was absolutely wrong...
yeah..

arg.. megan...

nathan.. that is the most confusing topic i have had to deal with.. in some time.. besides me not knowing the song/ monologue for auditions..:/

so yeah...
i dont know what exactlry is going on with that.. but  i know..
that its a tender subject..

so i dont know..
i dont feel like being hurt.. </3 but oh well..

emiley amanda

its raining..
   im sick..
      and moody...
  and have cried twice today..
the notebook <3
and cause i wanted to leave grant when i went to go get megan..

i didnt go to school..
talked to seth last night.. dude ive fucked alot up this year

AnAngelFailed [10:31 PM]:  "the ones we need ... dont know we're there"
Seth [10:31 PM]:  You wake up to an empty night with tears for two
AnAngelFailed [10:32 PM]:  i hurt you?
AnAngelFailed [10:32 PM]:  or just another quote?
Seth [10:32 PM]:  No shit sherlock
Seth [10:32 PM]:  you've hurt me too many times to count
AnAngelFailed [10:32 PM]:  i never thought i mattered..
Seth [10:32 PM]:  Right. Just to hurt me

i dont know though.. its weird...
things are sooo confusing..

i just want to be his friend.. i dont want any enemies anymore..
none..
so..
yeah..
im done..  for now..

im sorry...
emiley amanda

last night was crasay..

it started off where i was just really upset...
in one of my moods..

just so much is going on and amanda doesnt have the ability to handle it all..

so i planned on sitting here bored..
so i went and died my hair..

then..from all the fumes.. it started to eff me up by the end of the night..

the show was okay.. hanging out with Danielle and all the other kids was awesome..
on my way home.. I felt so sick.. blacked out.,.. and was sooo afraid i was gunna wreck.. and was in major need to wash my hair for a third time.. cause i could still smell the dye...

so now.. im sick-ish... and it sucks...
</3

yeah so i got two numbers last night.. lol..
one dani acquired for me..
and the other one was a very very hot guy i had my eye on all night..
and it just soo happened we had the same STAR belt.. with hundreds of little stars all over it..his was black and pink... mine is white and black

we ended up trading.. but by the end of the night he traded back. .cause it was his g.f and she quote "can whip his ass"..
he was pretty though.. <3

lol.. yes.. me being predictable again.. I KNOW..

<3 im out..

emiley amanda

::edit::
the thing that hurts is you keep it from me.. :/

so michael and Kassie broke up..
its so hard to think about.. He is my best friend.. But i think it might scare me a little bit..
he is a great guy.. no doubt.. but its weird..

I love hanging out with michael.. and being able to lay there and watch movies.. and not worry about anything happening..
but.. this is reality..
 this might be the fact of me.. actually knowing that ive liked him for some time now..
i know.. i told him before... but..

im afraid..

yes.. the straylight run show was awesome..
saw michael and marshall before it.. it was grand..

marshall tried to take my belt..
the reason why i hate him.. is because of things he said.. .
but i guess im done with that.. he really isnt that bad...
he is really hilarious...

ferdiddle.. is the best game..
same rules as padiddle..

but only totally deaf guys call it ferdiddle..
so austin was at the show,... and when straylight played.. i almost cried almost the last song we heard...
and from across some people.. he made room and held  his arm around me and swayed...

i dont know..
i have the best friend in the world though..
actually two best friends..

Megan and Michael...
i know its weird though...

cause things that i couldnt explain at this day and time.. but i feel something...
something weird..

its like.. iono.. weird.. well immma go..

<3 emiley